RECRUM: Recovery Ruminations: I'm Drunk

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

I'm Drunk

Back to square one.

No serenity, no sobriety, nada, nothing...

I got drunk tonight. Just had to do it.

Why?

3 Comments:

At 12/28/2004 11:49:00 PM, MrsM said...: I hit the "next blog" button one night and accidentally came upon your website the first day you posted, I was drawn right in. It was a bit odd because I had never hit that button before, and the only blogs I keep up with are those I know personally. I've been checking in ever since and keeping you in my prayers. Don't let one slip discourage you; what you've been able to achieve so far takes real strength. I know you have someone high up watching over you and really pulling for you, not to mention all the little folks of the world.

Psalm 62: 5-8
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.

I hope you don't mind me commenting on your site or lurking in the background until now.

~Best wishes
At 12/29/2004 03:35:00 AM, Phil said...: Any strength I have had in my recovery from alcoholism comes from God -- thank you for your prayers, because I really, really need them!

Madison is ADORABLE!! What about some pics of your boy at your blog?
At 12/29/2004 12:05:00 PM, MrsM said...: Madison is my second cousin - and bossco is our dog, heh heh We dont have children yet but look forward to them very much.

I'm Drunk

1. We admitted we were powerless over alcoholâthat our lives had become unmanageable.

2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Addiction and Recovery Support Webring

I Have Survived Webring

Just For Today Webring

AlcoholAndDrugAbuse.com
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Alcoholism: Getting the Facts
National Institutes of Health

Frequently Asked Questions on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism
National Institutes of Health

Alcohol Studies Database
Rutgers University

"...If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through.

1. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness

2. We will not regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it

3. We will comprehend the word serenity

4. We will know peace

5. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others

6. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear

7. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain insight into our fellows

8. Self-seeking will slip away

9. Our whole attitude and outlook will change

10. Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us

11. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us

12. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves

Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us -- sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them..."
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If God is for us, who can be against us? Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8